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I don't wanna fall for you again,
I don't want you to go through this pain,
I know I do not deserve you,
and you probably think the same thing too,
every effort I put in ends up in vain,
I don't wanna see you cry,
and I never wanna say good bye,
but who are we kidding?
we know it'll never be same.

You mean a lot to me,
A lot more than you'll ever know,
and every time you smile,
it makes my day that much more worthwhile,
I fell for you once,
but I know I wouldn't twice,
you deserve better, me and my love, just don't suffice.

Ever had a dream so real?

As my feet lift off from the ground,
A heart clenching fear is what's all around,
and I'm lifted further into the sky,
and then I open my wings and begin to fly,
the darkness surrounds me and I go invisible,
call it a trip, call it a sabbatical,

Have you ever had a dream so real,
when you wake up, the sensations you can still feel,
like a half-lived life somewhere,
what's real here is a dream there,

I see the ground below me,
and light-years of dark space,
I seek the greater truth,
and give life a good chase,
I breathe the cool air,
indulge in the tranquility,
I flap my wings faster
and think about what I used to be,
and soon I approach the tree of life,
I find my answers ahead,
for all the withered leaves and broken branches,
it might as well be dead,

Have you ever had a dream so real,
where you have felt the sorrow and the thrill,
like a half-lived somewhere,
what's a dream here is real there,

I'm lightheaded and I'm dizzy,
my eyes small and my heart's beating crazy,
death mocks me as I begin to fall down,
I close my eyes listening to the whistling breeze all around,
soon after, I hear a deafening splash,
and my body hurts from the impact of the smash,
my eyes flash open and I see both reality,
I see my room imprinted amidst my vision of the sea,
and the room gets more vivid as I become aware of my sprawled body,
while in another life,
I lose my consciousness and sink deeper into that sea,

Now tell me have you ever had a dream so real?
when you wake up, the sensations you can still feel,

like a half-lived life somewhere,
you wake up here but you die there.

The price of a smile

As a kid he was so genial,
believing things which were most ethereal,
every experience so congenial,
and every need ever so trivial,
his emotions were so real,
his beliefs strong as steel,
but now he's all grown,
so much hurt, reasons unknown,
the beguiling smile on his face,
and ever so gallant are his ways,
the sweetness is his spell,
the sweetness, his hell,
entombed within, his emotions boil,
the slightest pain inflicted makes him recoil,
he heard them talk about him behind his back,
all the nasty things and qualities that he lacked,
the calumnies and slanders,
the accusations and impudent banters,
he maintained his equanimity,
and his stoical personality,
with the beguiling smile on his face,
he hid his dismay in an uncharted place,
from that day on,
he took an oath so strong,
to never be the same kid again,

to never be hurt or looked upon with disdain.

At the end of your Tether

Brooding in a corner I wonder, 
upon the vagaries of life I ponder, 
how a split second can be cataclysmic, 
what is right what wrong, matters no longer,
the choices made, the fates sealed, 
now only the journey remains, filled by an obscure zeal, 
the trepidation and the anxiety, 
the pensive stares all around me, 
tomorrow I fight, tomorrow I sail high, 
my doom is slated, 
For tomorrow I die...

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Struggling to keep myself upright...
Endeavoring, so the world can hear my plight..
Cognizant that the world can be harsh..
I try to keep my head in the fight..
And the darkness abates..
Leaving me empty inside..
I shudder, and keep my veneer aside..
A hand holds me steady, waning the fright..
Smiling beatifically, she teaches how to survive..
Beguiling yet perplexing is her nature..
For she is the one who brings the tide..
Amidst which I struggle to keep myself upright.